Really in a bad place of thinking tonight. All I want are my old habits back of eating one meal a day and exercising for an hour and a half to burn it and extra off. I know these thoughts have no place in my head and I thought of myself as recovered but I doubt my balance anymore. I have life heading in a good path that I want to go back down a dark road just to focus on the important things. I never lost that focus when I was still walking with Ana. I know it’s hard work but I will be pretty and not doubt myself. I will reach personal happiness. I’m just scared of how I’m thinking right now.